1) I got an email this morning our learning specialist (the one who helps kids with learning difficulties, disabilities, etc.) with the subject line "The buzz around FGS." And the message was "I wanted you to know that several of your past and current students are singing your praises. It has just come up incidentally in conversation, and kids, past and present, keep saying what a wonderful teacher you are."
How lovely is that? And she cc'd my department chair and the head of the upper school as well. Super sweet of her to have passed on the compliment, and also lovely to pass it on not just privately but to my higher-ups as well.
2) Then tonight I got an email from the head of the school: "Do you have 10 minutes to meet with me at some point tomorrow (Thursday) or Friday? I would like to talk briefly about English Department business. Let me know when you are free and I will make time in my schedule." I wrote back to her with when I was free, but she hasn't yet responded.
I was expecting something along these lines because I knew that she and other administrators were talking today about the English Department chair business.
If I were a betting woman, at this point I would put down money that she is NOT going to offer me the department chair position for next year but that instead it is going to go to my dear friend and former colleague who also threw her hat in the ring for the job. It's just a hunch, really, based on the fact that a 10-minute meeting is just long enough to let someone down easy but not long enough to really make any plans for the next year.
I'm trying not to be disappointed, especially prematurely, although one of my coping strategies is to be bummed about things ahead of time so that I can handle them better in the moment. I'm reminding myself that I initially said that I didn't want the job, so it's silly for me to be disappointed if I don't get it. But of course there's a big difference between taking myself out of the running and being turned down by someone else! Anyway, there's no point fretting about it one way or the other. My one goal now is to play it cool whatever happens tomorrow. (Or possibly Friday, I realize, but I really hope that she can meet with me tomorrow so as not to drag this out.)
And I'm also reminding myself that whatever happens in that meeting, the first email above is always going to be a more important marker of success.